I am Tai Chi teacher and a Mindfulness teacher.
This was my sort of being caught by a narcissist after a divorce. My empathetic nature and open mindedness made me a target.
It has been an amazing journey and without my training I am not sure I would have come out so positive. I hope this article gives an insight to the minds of a narcissist and gaslighter and how easy it is to become prey to it. I am so grateful for my friends and my training to bring me out the other side.
This city is haunted for me now. Something is crushing me– and it’s the past that never existed. It’s the way he invaded me As I spoke my history, dreams, and plans While he whispered lies With both lips and eyes. My memory is an abyss. My heart is too big for my chest– it threatens detonation. I’m going to stop pretending soon when my future no longer shimmers like broken glass. I’m going to shatter into pieces soon when my mind can stop flitting down a phantom path. Even in sleep, the pain pounds relentlessly. I don’t know what...
When I see you in your ‘good’ I can’t help but want you I imagine my skin next to yours our bodies caressing and writhing. A look you give That I just can’t resist But I must break this cycle Of craziness between us. The hurt I feel from your betrayal And the sacrifices I made For nought but heartache Leave me filled with so much anger. And yet I want you, need you Deep inside me Moving as only we two know how a carnal need ignited in our eyes. An unspoken link that transverses Understanding by others A...
My name is Kristen Milstead. I have a Ph.D. in Sociology and I am also a narcissistic abuse survivor. I'm passionate about using research to help other survivors heal and to promote awareness of narcissistic abuse. Read more about the mission of Fairy Tale Shadows here. My writing has been featured on PsychCentral, HealthyPlace, Your Tango, Thought Catalog and others. Learn more about my story here. Welcome! Wherever you are in your healing journey, you are not alone.
Learning all I can about Narcissists and their abuse, makes so much sense to me now. I could never put my finger on... what exactly was "wrong" with my husband. He twisted everything so much, I doubted my sanity. It's helping me heal myself, my mind, and validates that all the things I was doing on my own to begin the recovery of narcissistic abuse, were the absolute best things to do, and I was doing them instinctively. I've passed through all the stages, and am now starting to move on. I returned to college (keeping my mind occupied, focused, and engaged), changed habits, became more independent (I had no choice), and made new friends. I have no contact due to his court order as part of the conviction for his crimes against me. I am stronger than I ever knew I was. I have survived! I'm not 100% healed, but I'm well on my way! 🥰read more
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