I'm in my twentieth year of this hell and want to tell my story but I've hesitated thinking that no one would ever believe what I've been through . I'm frozen now forever
Hi
I am Tai Chi teacher and a Mindfulness teacher.
This was my sort of being caught by a narcissist after a divorce. My empathetic nature and open mindedness made me a target.
It has been an amazing journey and without my training I am not sure I would have come out so positive. I hope this article gives an insight to the minds of a narcissist and gaslighter and how easy it is to become prey to it. I am so grateful for my friends and my training to bring me out the other side.
This city is haunted for me now. Something is crushing me– and it’s the past that never existed. It’s the way he invaded me As I spoke my history, dreams, and plans While he whispered lies With both lips and eyes. My memory is an abyss. My heart is too big for my chest– it threatens detonation. I’m going to stop pretending soon when my future no longer shimmers like broken glass. I’m going to shatter into pieces soon when my mind can stop flitting down a phantom path. Even in sleep, the pain pounds relentlessly. I don’t know what...
When I see you in your ‘good’ I can’t help but want you I imagine my skin next to yours our bodies caressing and writhing. A look you give That I just can’t resist But I must break this cycle Of craziness between us. The hurt I feel from your betrayal And the sacrifices I made For nought but heartache Leave me filled with so much anger. And yet I want you, need you Deep inside me Moving as only we two know how a carnal need ignited in our eyes. An unspoken link that transverses Understanding by others A...
Kristen Milstead has a Ph.D. in Sociology and is the author of Why Can't I Just Leave? A Guide to Waking Up and Walking Out of a Pathological Love Relationship. She is a narcissistic abuse survivor.
