I am 45yrs old and a self employed carpenter.I am passionate about nature and natural history.I believe in the "Golden Rule". and I have tried to live my life by that principle. I Do have my weaknesses. I Will admit to them and I try not to allow them to negatively affect others. I have strong beliefs about morality,equality,and justice.I try to temper these ideals with compassion and understanding. If I believe that an injustice has been committed to myself,to another,to the earth, I am not afraid to stand and fight.I try to choose my battles wisely.I don't know how to fight this battle wisely. The damage that this past "relationship" has left me with has broken me.I don't know how to move forward. I am not the man I used to be. I can't Stand what I have become.Allowing this "force" into my life is the greatest mistake I have ever made. I was a fool.I didn't know manipulation,cruelty,and deciet until I allowed this woman into my life.