It still leaves me in awe too when I read about my experiences being relayed by someone else. This type of person is the worst I have ever met. I would feel more comfortable around a murderer, or even a serial killer because I know what to expect, SMH.

I had gone no contact, but broke it in an attempt to get court papers signed. It was a mistake. I already knew he was sick, but of course I was punished. It wasn’t unexpected, but as a person with genuine feelings, it hurts to see him for the monster he is and it hurts to accept that not only does he not give a shit about me, but that he intentionally tried to hurt me and cause problems in my life.

It’s been almost a week and I am still seething with anger. I wish I wasn’t, but I am. I keep trying to think that he will get what is coming to him one day, but maybe it won’t. But i suppose the fact that he is so empty and miserable that he needs constant reassurance, something to fill his void, that fact means he’s already getting what he deserves even though it may not be his fault that he is the way he is. At this point, I sincerely hope it gets worse for him. I also hope my anger subsides quickly.

I felt better with no contact before, I hope to feel better again. I still hope his emptiness swallows him and I mean that. I hope that anyone who treats people the way these sick people treat people have genuine epiphanies and SUDDENLY gain a soul complete with genuine feelings, understanding and empathy, TODAY, RIGHT NOW.

I’m glad you find it comforting, Jacky. I understand so well all of the feelings you are expressing. The truth is very difficult to accept, and acceptance does happen in stages. It can only really happen once no-contact is truly applied, and that’s the only way we start to really get better.