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Leaving a Narcissist Occurs in 5 Empowering Stages

We can’t leave a narcissist and begin our journey toward narcissistic abuse recovery until we go through five stages. 

These stages embody the necessary psychological steps that will give us back our lives.

I’ve written before about eleven things that can happen before a partner goes no-contact. These are things I experienced in response to what I was enduring in my past relationship.

They included things such as epiphanies I had, unusual behaviors I exhibited, and inexplicable emotions I felt. I wrote this not long after I went no-contact as I thought back on the relationship and the psychological turmoil I had been suffering through at the time.

Now, however, I can see that each emotion and reaction I felt, as one of those eleven things, was actually a result of progressing through a painful but necessary and empowering journey toward the breakup. 

I was awakening to a new view of the relationship, one in which it was reframed from a place where I’d once felt the happiest I’d ever been to a place where I realized I was alone with a stranger and had to use all of my mental and emotional strength to leave. 

It did not happen overnight. In fact, it took me over two years.

Why?

 

Breaking Up with a Narcissist: The Eternal Trap We Must Escape

Narcissists lure.

They lure with promises, flattery, lies and sweet words.

The mask shifts with each new person in their sights, adjusting to our likes and dislikes, filling in crevices to become whatever seems to be missing and fulfilling our long-lost dreams. What remains the same, however, is that the true nature of the narcissist remains hidden behind the mask.

With that mask, employed skillfully at the outset, the narcissist sets the stage to lure and trap by putting it back on again and again.

Untouchable. That’s what they want to be.

Imagine the narcissist with a piece of chalk. With the love-bombing they pour on us at the beginning of the relationship, narcissists draw a fat, white circle of protection around themselves.

Their words and deeds during that time further cast a glittering, golden spotlight of goodness over them and we form a bond with the person standing in that spotlight that is difficult to break.

Later, each time they step out of that circle, that is, “cross the line,” and our brain and body scream at us that we have been violated, they only have to stand under the golden goodness inside that circle so we catch them in its glow to get us to override our own instincts.

“No, I’m not abusing you. I love you.”

This is why I call it “escaping” a relationship with a narcissist.  

I am not the only one to do so. H.G. Tudor, self-aware narcissist, describes three stages in our interactions with narcissists as we try to leave them. He also describes it as if it is an escape.

Breaking up with a narcissist means psychologically changing our view of it to become free. There is no other way.

For some, it may occur faster than others.

How hard it is for us to get to the point to where we can go no-contact depends on many factors, such as the level of attachment, the length of the relationship, our willingness to give others the benefit of the doubt, our own fears and weaknesses, how hard the narcissist keeps fighting to keep us from leaving and how deeply the narcissist has obscured the idea that the relationship is abusive behind any of a dozen other smokescreens.  

This is why we must progress through these five stages psychologically before we can leave. In each stage, our view of the narcissist changes and so does our view of the relationship until we are either force ourselves out or we are broken down.

The reason why it takes so long is that the abuse itself is kept hidden from us. What we are gaining enlightenment to is the fact that we have been enduring abuse and that we must leave in order to save ourselves no matter how much it hurts.  

I hope by identifying these stages, others who read this may be able to identify their own feelings more easily, view what is happening more objectively and perhaps feel less fear and confusion.

Perhaps understanding what these stages are may shed light on where you’ve been, where you are, and where you still need to go.

I hope it may give you strength and hope that you can get there so that you can leave the narcissist, and that it can reassure you that whatever emotions you’re feeling now or fear you will feel later, you are not alone.

The Five Main Stages of Leaving a Narcissist

Because of the very nature of how we are abused, there are stages through which we progress during a romantic relationship with a narcissist, starting with the discovery that the relationship is not what we thought it was to purging the narcissist from our lives.

Narcissistic abuse hides the abuse from the partner through elaborate tactics that twist the wrongdoing of narcissists into their victimhood instead of ours and leaves us feeling guilty, shameful, afraid, confused, and anxious all at the same time.

Only through the progression of these five stages can we move from passive participants in the relationship who do what the narcissist wants us to do to active performers in our own lives, who do things that may not be in the best interest of the narcissist– but are definitely in ours. Only then can we leave the relationship.

Stage 1:  Awareness of the Narcissistic Abuse

Will the narcissist hoover? This article highlights how narcissists view relationships to explain how to know if a narcissist is finished with you.

This happens inevitably after the initial phase of the relationship when one has been idealized by a narcissist.

At the beginning of the relationship with the narcissist, things were perfect.  We were not yet aware of what was to come.  We believed in what the narcissist presented to us because we entered the relationship with good intentions.

At some point, something happens or a series of incidents occur that trigger awareness of the abuse.

We may not yet call it abuse, much less understand that our partner is a narcissist, but these are the moments that lead us to the epiphany that something is terribly wrong. Someone who loves us should not be able to do the horrifying things that were done to us.

Because these are the first glimpses behind the mask and we are bound to the narcissist at least partly if not mostly because of forces beyond our control, we likely enter a state of denial and tell ourselves that this is not what we think it is.

Stage 2: Understanding That the Behavior is Abusive 

Narcissistic abuse in relationships is difficult to define. This article describes why and explains what makes it distinct from other forms of abuse.

Reaching the second stage requires coming to understand the nature of what’s happening, that abuse is taking place. There have been too many incidents. The idealization stage has begun to fade away and we are now so miserable, we have begun to seek answers.

Perhaps we have been talking to others outside the relationship who provided us with an outsider’s perspective. We may have turned to the Internet and stumbled across details about narcissism.

The scope and magnitude of what we are up against, however, have now been planted by this external information. We now have two competing realities: one from the narcissist and one from outside the narcissist that provides us with a new and rational understanding of his or her behavior.

“Understanding,” is not usually the ticket out because it’s merely the bigger picture that is inevitably gained as we seek to make sense of the reality we live in as more of the mismatch between the narcissist’s words and deeds pile up.

At this time, it actually contributes to the cognitive dissonance we feel and now, denial is no longer sufficient as a primary method of managing our understanding of the narcissists’s behavior because the new information we have competes with the narcissist’s “version of events.”

Confusion sets in, as the narcissist returns to the white circle dozens of times and we see him or her step out of it just as many, and we now have to choose what to believe about why he or she is doing such things.

Stage 3: Accepting That the Behavior is Destructive

We may remain in Stage #2 for some time, confused.

We try new methods to cope with what’s happening– accepting the blame to try to keep the relationship together, denying that our partner is a narcissist, trying to use what we learned to become more compliant or prove the literature wrong– our relationship will turn out differently, we’ll get through this, we think defiantly.

Eventually, however, progression into Stage #3 generally comes with time, after persistent cruel treatment by the narcissist and our inability to get anything to change and improve.

At this point, the idealization stage is usually so far in the past, we rarely see glimpses of it anymore. Or we have been subjected to so much betrayal and pain, we don’t feel as if we are the same person anymore as we were when the relationship started.

In addition, we have been slowly conditioned not to talk about it or express or process our feelings about what has been done to us.

We may have lost much of our support system or feel beaten down and our emotions may have slipped long past confusion to defeat. We come to accept that the relationship is bad for us and we need to leave the narcissist.

And yet, we do not because we cannot.

We find ourselves being drawn again and again back into it.

The awareness that we cannot leave causes us additional suffering, as now we know what is happening to us and still we cannot escape. Instead, now not only does the narcissist’s behaviors not match his or her words– ours no longer do either.

Sandra L. Brown, author of Women Who Love Psychopathswrites that:

“…The partners must split in order to stay. In reality, [the survivor] has held two different relationships with the good/bad dichotomous psychopath! Each one of these relationships has required a different belief system in order to remain in it. These belief systems begin to battle each other…”

These two belief systems were drawn out of us slowly over time, using our own strengths and weaknesses against us.

This is the most difficult of the stages to explain in isolation– for how can someone know and accept that a relationship is abusive and desire to leave it, and yet not do so? 

Yet the broader context of all the stages, both those that came before and those that come after, and how the relationship has always been about dominance and control by the narcissist can provide most of the answers. 

We become paralyzed when our two belief systems are competing with one another and are at the whims of the narcissist.

We begin to develop learned helplessness, in response to being unable to act effectively one way or another in the relationship– either to leave it or to be treated in the manner in which we wished to be treated.

From my own experience, I remember at one point in my relationship with my narcissistic ex-boyfriend feeling as if I would never get away from him until one of us was dead.

Thankfully, I was wrong.

Stage 4:  Re-Awakening Eroded Aspects of the Self

This helplessness we develop is created in us over time by the abusive tactics perpetrated by the narcissist.  It is an illusion. 

Overcoming the acute abusive tactics that keep us confused and helpless is the next stage we need to enter prior to being able to leave the narcissistic relationship. These tactics the narcissist has used to get us to this point include gaslighting, refusal to discuss any of the wrong-doing, blame-shifting, and others.

The tactics keep us under the control of the narcissist. They cause us to feel both incapable and unwilling to begin to tear down the bond that the narcissist developed with us at the beginning, by manufacturing emotions in us.

We feel fear because of the unknown future or what life will be like without the narcissist in our lives.

We feel guilt at doing anything to harm the narcissist, as if we are betraying him or her, and start to think of the good times and good things he or she has done for us. We feel as if we are giving up if we stop trying.

We feel sadness thinking about the loss of the massive presence of that person in our lives if we do anything to remove it.

We feel doubt that we are right about how bad things are, that we are not to blame for how things have turned out, or that we are capable of even doing such a thing.

We feel weak and unable to pull off leaving, knowing it will cause a torrent of emotion and subsequent range of dramatic responses from the narcissist.

Yet– somehow– despite feeling all of these things, we must overcome them by realizing they are manufactured by what the narcissist has done to us.

They are illusions.

What is real is the anxiety we feel, perhaps in the back of our minds, knowing they will never change or knowing that they can’t ever be faithful.

What is real is the constant “fight or flight” mode we find ourselves in and the nightmares we wake up to due to their explosive tirades we can’t predict. The lies and the gaslighting and our unease and obsessive thoughts.

What is real is the constant questioning and accusations and that persistent feeling we can’t relax into our own lives, that we have lost ourselves a piece at a time and been forced inside a tiny cage until we now live trapped inside of it.

Stage #4 is about letting those emotions and that voice that is carrying them rise closer to the top and override the false emotions that sit in the eroded parts of ourselves where the narcissist has taken up residence and parked his or her own suggestions. Those suggestions serve his or her benefit– not ours.

Overcoming the tactics the narcissist has used to bring us to the point to where we felt we can’t escape means:

  • recognizing what they’re doing when they use one of these tactics
  • calling out the narcissist when he or she uses them
  • not treating the bad behavior they have engaged in throughout the relationship as acceptable just to keep the peace
  • not letting any of what they say when they use these tactics help resolve cognitive dissonance in their favor (e.g., believing they are correct when they gaslight and we should doubt our own perceptions, etc.)
  • seeing oneself as in control, empowered, and undeserving of this treatment; sometimes this involves “faking it until making it”

This is a turning point in the “enlightenment,” for it is when we begin to gain our control back– and yet it is difficult because nothing will bring it about other than a conscious effort on our parts to stop merely accepting that this is abuse and thinking differently about it. 

Other things that happen in the external world may assist with moving us closer to Stage #4.

For example:

Without the narcissist’s influence during a silent treatment, we may begin to think more clearly about what has been going on because the narcissist’s tactics by default will not be of immediate influence.

For example, there will be no gaslighting during this time, so we may be able to start putting things together, or having more empowering thoughts that we don’t want to and shouldn’t let go of if the narcissist reaches out again later.

Or perhaps our health begins to decline or we suffer another loss in our lives.

Or we may have an epiphany due to an action of the narcissist and realize that, though leaving may result in an emotional crisis for us, a worse fate may result from staying in the relationship. 

We may begin to feel ourselves slowly disappearing. We may begin to feel that our lives are stuck. We may begin to feel that we will never get out of the relationship, or that if we do we will never recover from the abuse the narcissist has inflicted on us.

In my case, many of these things happened and they gradually led me to become aware that I wanted and needed to be more in charge of myself than I had been in the past.  It was almost as if I no longer had a choice.  As I said, it was a turning point to where I could choose to empower myself or continue to empower him.

I realized I could not trust or rely on my narcissist ex to do what I had expected and I had to start looking out for myself.

It was not like flicking a light switch, however, where I was suddenly one day “empowered.”

It was a gradual and building sense of empowerment as I grew apart from him and let myself grow apart from him.  

“You’re getting sick.” 

“Something bad is going to happen.”

What this empowerment led to was a growing feeling of desperation. 

I knew things would never be the same.  It was only a matter of time.

Stage 5: Changing Psychological Mindset and Taking Action

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In Stage #4, the psychological shift is the attitude we have toward ourselves and our ability to do something about what we’ve gone through.

In Stage #5, our mindset changes and we no longer view the narcissist or the relationship the same way. We become ready to tear it all down. We must actually take actions to remove oneself from the abusive situation physically and psychologically and begin the process of breaking up with the narcissist. 

This is where narcissistic abuse recovery truly begins because we have begun to have more control over our own actions despite the fear and guilt we feel at how it will impact the relationship or the narcissist.

The process involves two steps:

  • Go completely no-contact with the narcissist forever; and
  • Stop idealizing the narcissist and the relationship.

It is not enough to go no contact. Shahida Arabi, narcissistic abuse survivor and researcher, says that even though the relationship is toxic, we can get stuck: “If our grief is not addressed, it will get lodged in our brains, our hearts, and our spirits as nostalgia for a man or woman that never existed.”

As alluded to in Stage #4, stating that there is a psychological shift and that we then take action implies that the shift is very black-and-white and that the action is very purposeful.

It implies that there is some dramatic confrontation, as in the movies, where we tell off our partners and walk out the door with all of our belongings never looking back, leaving them speechless and regretful for the way they treated us.

It also implies that everything is suddenly crystal clear and every move we make from here on out is with determination and a sense of self-awareness and direction.

No.

The end is an angst-ridden earthquake, a freefall into a future in which we no longer even know who we are. The end is a blind spot where they implanted themselves in our psyche, still dictating our actions and monitoring our thoughts for a time even as they are out of our lives.

It’s an emotional roller coaster.  It’s a death, fraught with loss and uncertainty.

What Stage #5 does mean is that we pass the point of no return psychologically where we no longer just see the relationship as bad for us, we start to see the narcissist as a disordered person with whom we no longer wish to be in a relationship with.

We are more willing to accept the unknown than to accept the nightmare we have been living.

We choose ourselves.

 

Assistance with Recovering from a Breakup with a Narcissist

I’m always on the lookout for new and high-quality resources for survivors. Are you struggling with how to leave your narcissist partner?  This course on the five steps you can take to exit can help. Are you having trouble recovering from the relationship even after it’s over? Try enrolling in this Webinar on getting started with your recovery so you can start to get off the emotional roller coaster or this one on using EFT Tapping to break the addiction to the narcissist. Lovefraud webinars on relationship abuse are presented by experts but also from the perspective of experience. Almost every instructor learned about the behavior of sociopaths in relationships the hard way. They’re affordable and offer practical information you can start using immediately. If you decide to try one, send me an email and let me know how it went!

 

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Sources:

Arabi, Shahida. “The Real Reason You Miss the Narcissist.” Thought Catalog. Retrieved May 4, 2019 from https://thoughtcatalog.com/shahida-arabi/2018/02/the-real-reason-you-miss-the-narcissist/

Tudor, H.G. “The Devastation of the Illusion.” Knowing the Narcissist. Retrieved May 4, 2019 from https://narcsite.com/httpnarcsite-com20161011the-devastation-of-the-illusion/

Kristen Milstead

Kristen Milstead is a narcissistic abuse survivor who has become a strong advocate for finding your unique voice and using it to help others find theirs.

71 Comments

  1. Hello, this site is a great resource. I’m not sure if my abuser suffers from narcissism or borderline personality disorder. It may be the latter based on the comment above.

    I do know that he suffers from mental illness and addiction, and his own unprocessed trauma. I was lucky that the devalue phase happened very quickly and I recognized the signs, sought help, and extricated myself. He removed himself from the community we were both part of both to hurt me and not to hurt me. I think there was good in him that knew that he would further harm me, so he created a scenario where I would have no choice but to leave.

    I could either leave and allow it to end and retain my values and dignity, or i could stay and it would end. I had a “no choice” choice, since i don’t think I could have stayed away any other way. I had a lot of support from friends, and I joined an art group for women who have suffered abuse and violence, which helped me practice thinking of my future and goals, and valuing myself.

    Eventually I met a new creative partnership (we were friends and partners in a shared art form) and the things i thought I could only get through him I found in a new and healthy relationship, one where there was no need to provide any admiration or meet any criteria whatsoever. I feel loved unconditionally and respected, and have a mutually rewarding relationship where ideas can be shared and compared, disagreement is allowed, and the other person is emotionally available.

    I can hardly believe how blessed I am to have found a new friendship that could provide all this and expand my opportunities beyond anything I dreamt possible.

    I share this to say there is hope. Friends told me this could happen for me, and I would pretend to believe them and maybe even give lip service, but inside I didn’t think it was possible for me. I do believe I went through the five phases, because I have moved on and no longer feel a need or desire to have him in my life. This happened after two years of daily suffering and grief, including less than a year of no-contact. I am now at 14 months of no contact on social media and luckily avoided a recent in-person run-in through work.

    I feel strong enough that if I were to run into him now, I would be okay, but I don’t desire it since I know no good could come of it unless he seeks help and really desired to change. I know that has not happened so I decided to not respond to a Facebook friend request I received and continue maintaining a distance.

    I try not to think about him, and instead focus on my new life I am creating. I had to be reborn to fully escape, but I like that person. She is stronger and more beautiful.

    You all deserve the same and I say a prayer and send hugs to you each, with my affection and gratitude.

  2. This is the best article I have read about leaving. I’m currently out of my own home with my daughter and have given my narcissistic boyfriend until January to get out. Yes, I left my own home. There’s a lot more to the story that I could write, but it hurts to think about all I’ve been through and have allowed my daughter to go through.

    He initially tried to sweet talk me but now he is just being extremely verbally abusive, even through texts. I’m hoping I won’t have to call the police to get him out if he doesn’t leave by the date I set.

    Thank God for everyone who has shared their experiences here. It helps to know I’m not alone.

    1. Kristen Milstead

      Thank you for taking the time to leave a comment, Elizabeth. You are definitely not alone. I hope you and your daughter are okay. Please stay strong! -Kristen

  3. Thank you for your article. I’ve been married to him 16 years and 4 years with him before that. I feel like I’m stuck between 4 and 5 and I just don’t know how to leave. I have a 13 year old daughter and he doesn’t mind one bit talking to my like trash in front of her. He always saying why want you work with me! Do you love me? Hollering because I won’t see things his way!

  4. I am currently in stage 5 and I feel so liberated, the best I’ve felt in years. I know now that all the pain & harm he caused me is because of his own insecurities. I cannot help him or feed his narcissistic ways anymore, I am moving forward and I am thinking of me and my wellbeing, yes it’s scary but I know I will be so much happier than I have been over the last 15 years and I deserve someone who respects me, supports me and helps me grow. He dragged me to the bottom, so low I didn’t want to be here anymore but I got help and support and now I see him for what he is, his lies no longer bother me, his cruel remarks help me to move away from him, his gaslighting will come back and smack him in the face, karma has a funny way of coming round. I am moving forward ???? you can too and you will be ok!! I promise x

  5. Carol L. Federwisch

    I left my narcissistic husband four years ago this month. We were married 11 years (too long) and I had known him for many years before we were married. This is so spot on to what I experienced. I was stuck in #3 for too long. Once I hit #5 I was done and gone. Thank you for writing this and confirming for me I’m not the crazy one.

  6. Hi,

    I feel stuck between 4 and 5.
    A week ago i’ve fallen for his hoover again and this time his was really going for it and told me what i wanted to hear. I was also so tired of him pushing and didnt want to hurt his feelings or see him go again that i gave up and let him in. After the sex he turned cold on me.
    I suddenly understood what was happening and i told him to leave. He didnt seem to care. His last words..I give up you have your own truth..

    He left me behind broken. I felt so used and stupid. It was like a nightmare. Who was this guy who one hour ago said he loved me and now walked out the door with all his stuff. It was like he was on top and had me where he wanted me..down. He broke my heart.

    Since that day i cant seem to find my believe in the goodness of other people, i dont know how to process my feelings, there are moments i can see clearly what has happened but then there is the other side that keeps looking back at the good times and the sweet things he had done or said and then i miss that. Then i start to think that it could be all my fault, that i was to difficult etc etc and then i have the devastating thought that maybe i deserved all of it…

    I spent my days trying to get a clear mind about how it really is and what to do but its so difficult.
    Its like i’m stuck between believing myself or believing him. When i believe in myself i will lose him. When i believe in him i will lose myself.

    To be honest at this moment i feel that when he would hoover me now it would still fill an empty bucket and give me a intermittent reinforcement. Why cant i just be finished with him…

    I’m done with all the reading and watching youtube, i have read and watched everything, know everything there is to know.

    The thought that i will never hear from him again scares me at this point but at the same time there is relief because i’m free and getting rest. I would never reach out to him again.

    If any one recognize this and wants to tell their story of how they finally let go/ processed there emotions, i would appreciate to hear about that. Next week i will visit a therapist that knows more about abusive relationships and i hope that will help also.

    Thank you for reading. I’m sorry if i made some mistakes in writing.

    Jacky

    1. Jacky…
      I’ve put in ten years & I’m done. I’m getting my things in order to make the break & I don’t know where I’m going but anywhere has to be better than where I’m at.
      I wish you luck. I’m to the point of my body vomiting any time I see him. I now view him as the sick person he is. I can feel it’s going to be an adjustment but, for the better.
      I’ve never had so much anger & frustration built up in my life. It’s all I can do to not punch him repeatedly in the face. He’s not worth it but he certainly deserves it.
      Best wishes.

      1. Victoria i’m so sorry you feel this way and have to go through this. I wish you a lot of strenght. I really hope all will soon be beter.
        I’m having a really difficult time to process all of this. It feels like an addiction and i think i have withdrawal symptoms.

        If you want you can let me know how your doing, maybe we can help each other through this.

        Jacky????

    2. Kristen Milstead

      Hi Jacky: Don’t beat yourself up for falling for a hoover and the emotions you’re having. This is the never-ending cycle that they create in us, and at this point it becomes torture because we have recognized what is going on, but feel as if we will never escape. Send me an E-mail at kristen@fairytaleshadows.com and I’ll let you know my thoughts on what you wrote. -Kristen

    3. Jacky,
      Hi,this is a different Victoria. Everything you wrote is very true for me as well. Thank you for sharing it so clearly. Ugh…I’m definitely stuck between 4 and 5 now too. Yes, he makes me too, feel like it’s all MY fault for acting so “weird “to him. Glad to know it’s not just me. He does a great hoovering job of pulling me back into his circle of light…until the next episode, that is. After 5 years, they are coming more often. I’m scared as hell,but know that stage 5 is imminent. Thank you for sharing your pain,and strength. We are not alone in this!

      1. Hi Victoria,

        Thanks for your reply and telling your story.
        I hope we soon will be able to break free. We have to start and keep believing in ourselfs and stop believing them. Deep inside we know what to do.
        Take care.

        Jacky????

    4. Jacky, my heart just aches for you. I don’t know how long you been knowing this monster. I have known mine
      for 28 years. I feel like I gave up my soul my mind and my body when I was in this relationship. And was getting older and there was no way out. I am a counselor and I recognize his narcness. But, I had no idea how sick he really is. Processing emotions after experiencing this monster is very important to me.The more I write about what happened the better I feel. These monsters are truly emotional vampires. They come in they take what they want and leave us too weak to save ourselves. Know that you are beginning to save yourself. The first clue is that I had to admit that I was not in Kansas anymore and he truly is the wicked wizard of Oz. I am glad you’re going to see a therapist but, be careful not everybody knows about narcissism.

  7. Question- narcissists and borderline personality disorder. Do they treat people the same way? Does a person with BPD give silent treatments, manipulate, lash out, etc. as a narcissists?

    1. Kristen Milstead

      Hi Paige: This is a large question that is difficult to answer in a comment, but both disorders fall on a spectrum, which means that no two people on either will treat people the exact same way. In other words, how the disorders manifest themselves may be very different: not all people with either BPD or NPD will give silent treatments, for example; they may use other tactics to hurt or manipulate the people in their lives. There is some overlap in the criteria for each of the two disorders, however, there are also some important differences.

      Briefly, and this is my understanding: Both do manipulate and lash out, but the reasons differ. Narcissists need to manipulate to maintain an idealized version of themselves (or may do it because they enjoy the drama and harm they cause to others). People with BPD manipulate to avoid being abandoned. Narcissists lash out when they feel they are being criticized, and people with BPD do it when they feel they have been rejected.
      Both have object constancy issues, and see people as either all good or all bad, thus the love/hate dichotomy. Narcissists often don’t know or accept that they are narcissists because they see everyone else as the problem and that’s why their disorder tends to affect others more than themselves. People with BPD often have an abiding sense of emptiness and self-loathing that they recognize and tend to also harm themselves or have suicide attempts. People with BPD may come to recognize that they have a personality disorder and seek treatment; there is a scientifically-backed treatment for the disorder, Dialectical Behavioral Therapy, and the evidence shows they may be cured of the disorder with treatment. Although there are some individual therapists who treat narcissists that are lower on the narcissist spectrum to manage their symptoms, there is no currently-accepted form of treatment for narcissism that will cure narcissism that I’m aware of, because most narcissists do not seek treatment. If they recognize their narcissism, they use the knowledge to manipulate further.

      If anyone has further knowledge on the differences or feels I have captured the differences inadequately, please feel free to add additional comments.

      -Kristen

  8. I’m really proud of you because I was in the same situation my husband left us without money any financial resources I have no job. Now after this nightmare I can say I’m better I feel safer my kids are happy . you are really brave keep it that way I wish you good luck

  9. Your articles were a life saver in the beginning of my nightmare. I finally stood up for myself and our children and he left. Left with half of our household and all the money. I was in shock, we had just celebrated an anniversary, bought a new home and moved. It took that , and two years to see the abuse that I lived with for almost 17 years. He couldn’t control me anymore so he controlled the finances and left me and our children with the means to live. It took 4 years for our divorce to be final because I refused to roll over and play dead. There is no co-parenting with this person and it was one of our children that pointed out to me that I had been raising them on my own when he was here so don’t be sad. He doesn’t have a relationship with our daughter, but, our son still sees and talks to him. I can say now I am over him and I know that I am better now without him. We struggle financially but we are happy and the air in our home is calm and full of true love. For those in the first stages of awakening, there is light at the end. Don’t be afraid to ask for help and let your friends back in, they ate a safe place to vent.

  10. How do I go about this when the last time I was going to leave, my teen told me if I leave she won’t come to my house. My biggest fear is him influencing my kids against me. And I can’t leave my girls behind and just move out. How do I prepare them, and get them ready for this move. I feel totally trapped. Its no longer “if” but “when” and want to make sure I have a solid plan. My kids are everything to me.

    1. Hi Leanne:

      This is a tough question. I am not sure that I have the answers for you. Sometimes, I feel like in some families, kids side with the narcissistic parent for the same reasons that it is difficult for the rest of the world to see what they are like, but I haven’t dug as much into narcissistic families. I know this must be incredibly painful for you. If you can start to meet with a family therapist or someone who can help you to prepare or make a plan, that could be helpful for you. They can perhaps help you with how to prepare your children. I’m so sorry that you are going through this, but I am so glad for you that you have made the decision that you must leave the relationship and save yourself and your kids. Please stay strong! -Kristen

    2. Hi Leanne,
      This same situation happened to me with my youngest son the first time I was ready to leave. He was so upset I thought he was going to have a nervous breakdown… it was so sad. He literally begged me not to leave and said that he promised that he would make sure his dad wouldn’t do it again….I’m not even sure what it was at that particular time his dad had done because he had done so many things over the years obviously. I was only worried about my son. I specifically remember telling him with tears in my eyes “l will stay this time for you son…but I want you to understand…it’s not whether there’s going to be a next time…because there definitely will be a next time…. it’s when will the next time happen?”
      That was a turning point for me. It was only a few days later that we had another big altercation.
      This is going to be hard. Use your family and friends for support if you can. But get out sooner than later. I wasted 30 years! Good luck to you!
      Best Wishes!
      Susan

  11. This is one of the most amazing articles on the destructive power of narcissists I have ever read and no matter how difficult the relationship is with the acquired “learned helplessness” and our extreme feelings of weakness, you have given me hope to extricate myself from a very long marriage. I know it’s time to leave and after another nighttime argument where he said “you’d be nothing without me,” I realize I have to go for my sweet soul. At my age, I just want a practical “list” or “how to literally extricate myself.” Everyone says “get a plan” and “have a goal” and all I think about is where I can go and safely take my two cats. It’s not the money; it’s the practical steps to take. Also, there was a pop-up to get on your newsletter list and then it disappeared. I’d love to get on your email list. Kind regards! Your writing is outstanding and I’m sharing this with my therapist. Everything you say has so much truth to it, down to its deepest, heartfelt core.

    1. Hi Vicki: Thank you so much for your kind words and for taking the time to read the article. There is definitely hope! Have you read the book, “How to Do No Contact Like a Boss” by Kim Saeed? I recommend that as a place to start. Also if you click the link at the top of my homepage “Free Recovery Toolkit” you can sign up to download the ebook with some thought exercises and activities that worked for me about the before and after of going no-contact. Please know You are not alone and yes it really is worth it to leave and get your mind and your life back. It feels very strange but there is a freedom and relief that I feel in my entire body. I wish for you to be able to feel the same. If I can do it, anyone can. ❤ -Kristen

  12. Same here. 22 years and 3 children later. I would say the 1st 4 years were stage 1. About 18 years of stage 2 & 3. I’m FINALLY feeling stage 4 and see stage 5 creeping up. This is hard.

    1. pascaleshealingjourney

      It’s very hard indeed but you are heading in the right direction. Keep strong!

    2. I’ve been with my Narc for almost five years- I’m currently in stage 4 going to onto 5 and I do agree it’s difficult. My challenge is more financial than anything. I feel your pain though.

  13. Chauntelle Russell

    WOW! This sounded as if I could have written it myself. It also took 2 yrs while living with my ex malignant narcissist. A total of 5 yrs, my longest relationship, and most difficult & challenging of my life. I left out stronger than I’ve ever been. And accomplished not returning this time. Thank u for sharing this.

  14. Chauntelle Russell

    WOW! This sounded as if I could have written it myself. It also took 2 yrs while living with my ex malignant narcissist. A total of 5 yrs, my longest relationship, and most difficult & challenging of my life. I left out stronger than I’ve ever been. And accomplished not returning this time. Thank u for sharing this.

  15. Have you been in a relationship with my ex?? Seriously everything you have explained is exactly what I have endured the past four years I finally was able to end things almost 2 months ago but it wasn’t before I literally felt like I have lived through hell!! Two years ago I was having emotional breakdowns because accepting what I believed in and what I was living in was two opposites. He could be the most amazing man, treat me like I was a queen, we when we were together but let me leave his side and it was like a demon possessed him completely different person. I thank God he helped me see him for who he was because we were engaged to be married, I do not know if I would’ve ever broke free if I would’ve married him. Thanks for sharing your experience, it helps knowing I’m not crazy like he tried to make me feel!!! Talking about it does help but most people don’t even want to know.

  16. Have you been in a relationship with my ex?? Seriously everything you have explained is exactly what I have endured the past four years I finally was able to end things almost 2 months ago but it wasn’t before I literally felt like I have lived through hell!! Two years ago I was having emotional breakdowns because accepting what I believed in and what I was living in was two opposites. He could be the most amazing man, treat me like I was a queen, we when we were together but let me leave his side and it was like a demon possessed him completely different person. I thank God he helped me see him for who he was because we were engaged to be married, I do not know if I would’ve ever broke free if I would’ve married him. Thanks for sharing your experience, it helps knowing I’m not crazy like he tried to make me feel!!! Talking about it does help but most people don’t even want to know.

    1. It sounds like my life…as long as I’m doing everything he wants me to,he is the sweetest person. As soon as I do something I want to do or something he thinks I shouldnt do, all hell breaks loose! Then I get put down and made feel like I’m doing something wrong because he doesnt approve. Its mentally exhausting. And it messes with your head. I’m not even allowed to feel good about myself. He isnt happy until he has me mentally beat down and feeling like I’m nothing.

  17. The Five Views of the Narcissist and How Our View Must Shift Over Time Before We Can Leave | In the Shadows of the Fairy Tale

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  18. I was heavy abused by my ex now I am no contact because of court order . I am terified what is going to happen when the order of protection against him will be ended We have 5 years old dauther together she is with me now . I AM SCARED THAT HE WILL DO SOMETHING BAD ! Please advice K

    1. Kristen Milstead

      Hi Kinga: I am so sorry to hear about what you and your daughter are going through. My best advice is to contact the National Domestic Violence Hotline, who can put you in touch with resources in your area that can offer you the physical and legal protection you might need in the future when the court order ends. They know far more than I do about localized resources and what options you might have. Please visit their website at thehotline.org where you can chat with someone online 24/7 who can help. Their phone number is also listed there. Thank you for being brave enough to ask for help. You are not alone. -Kristen

  19. pascaleshealingjourney

    Very interesting. I think the 5 stages that you described are exactly what I went through before I was able to go no contact.

  20. Very interesting. I think the 5 stages that you described are exactly what I went through before I was able to go no contact.

    1. Same here. 22 years and 3 children later. I would say the 1st 4 years were stage 1. About 18 years of stage 2 & 3. I’m FINALLY feeling stage 4 and see stage 5 creeping up. This is hard.

      1. It’s very hard indeed but you are heading in the right direction. Keep strong!

      2. Did you finally break free? I’ve been in all those stages, 23 years of marriage, still he won’t let me go. If you manage to let go… pls do share how. It would be a great help. Thanks

        Btw mine is a malignant narcissist. Savage and sooooo abusing

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