As someone with BPD, I avoid doing this like the plague in spite of my fear of rejection. I do a LOT of unhealthy/harmful things, but after what I saw and experienced in my cultish upbringing, I work very hard to separate genuine affection from desperation to keep someone by my side. Thank god I have my biting sarcasm to keep the weaker folk at bay! (jk)

I assume you’ve had some bad experiences with someone who has the same personality disorder as me. If you have anything to share regarding how things went wrong in that relationship–and if you feel like sharing–I’d love to hear about it from you. It’s extremely difficult to change or to fight my mental illness, but I’m trying anyway. I don’t want to hurt anyone the way that I (and you!) have been hurt. I’m not the only one out there with a Cluster B PD who feels like that. Insight from family, friends, and loved ones is always important.

Anyway, aside from all of that, I hope that you’re free from the ones who’ve manipulated and hurt you.