I made the mistake of emailing my narcissist ex 2 days ago after 2 months of completely no contact because he blocked me everywhere “apparently for me own good cos I’m apparently crazy”

This used to happen:

If I was upset about something he would have a go at me, then tell me I’m stupid, I say stupid stuff and that I shouldn’t speak.
I get called psycho for asking stupid basic girlfriend questions and then he would ignore me for days on end until I actually had to beg him to talk to me after.

I was constantly threatened that my ‘behavior’ is such and I must think about my actions and reflect the things that I’ve done.

He constantly talked about his ex wife and had her family on all his social media and none of mine. He hid our relationship from everyone for a year and a half and when I called him out on it then the fights would start and the silent treatment and name calling.

I made a fake Instagram account to actually spy on the shit he was doing and I found out so many thing. Now his excuse is- he can’t deal with fake people living fake lives but I was driven to a point of insanity where I was forced to play investigator.

Can u tel me what to do to get over this? Everyone is just telling me things like- snap out of it or just get over it. If it was that simple wouldn’t I have done this already?

Hi Lindsay: You’re so welcome. Thank you for your kind words. I’m glad you were able to find a way to take away some lessons out of all that pain about yourself and how strong and beautiful you are. Stay strong! -Kristen

Hi Dina: You’re so welcome. I’m glad it was meaningful to you. -Kristen ❤