Thank you for your story.Hearing what others have gone through gives me a broader perspective.This helps me as well as deeply saddens.I am sorry.I cannot imagine the betrayal and loss that was inflicted upon you.
Your story caused me to think about some of the directions that my “nightmare” could have taken.I am thankful I never experienced such horror.Being victimized by someone you love is so profoundly damaging .Then while your reeling trying to make sense of it, you realize that you have been silenced.That is maddening !
That’s when the ice starts to form.
This is a spiritualy destructive mental illness that is highly contagious and malignant.
The devastating legacy of this illness is most heartbreaking when it falls upon children.
Every time I tell my story or hear of others it helps me feel a little less like a victim.
I am thankful for that !

You are absolutely correct. Christ is our shield and defender there is no other way to live with the aftershocks from this abuse. I am so sorry to hear of. The children involved in these stories. May God heal all the broken hearts involved. It’s the sin that caused this only Christ can set us free.

This is almost exactly what happenned to me !! I am so freaked out. I thought I was the only one who had ever gone through this nightmare. My ex got a protective order against me by going behind my back and creating the most viscious lies against me. We were still living together as a family ! I had no clue he had been doing these horrible cruel and evil things to me. He lied lied and lied on all the court papers. I was in shock when one “normal” morning , I woke up as usual only to be faced with the most horrific trauma . My ex had called the police, his mother ,and 2 lawyers to come over to remove me permanently from my home and my baby son. Only then at that moment he showed me and the police ,custody papers with him having sole custody ! I had no clue! He did all of this while still living with me. He so terribly abused me emotionally and psychologically up to that point ,causing me to be driven to sheer frustration and confusion that I was literally begging him to tell me what was wrong! He didn’t speak to me for weeks before that shocking horrorible day. I was literally writing him letters to get him to aknowledge my pain and we lived together! He had powerful lawyers on his side and his mother…I didnt stand a chance. I used my entire savings on a lawyer. Had to go out of state to my parents because I had no home . Back and forth on a Greyhound bus cross country at least 15 times for court. All I could do was sob uncontrollably . I was in a complete fog and unaware of what was happenning because I was in shock and just sobbed for weeks. He got a permanent protective order and I couldnt see my 2 year old son for 6 years. He so enjoyed the whole drama . He was the star and he was arrogant and smiling in court. He enjoyed seeing me completely broken and so deeply deeply hurt and shocked. That’s only a small part of years of trauma . Not enough pages to tell all. I
had no idea that such evil exists in this world. I am now 19 years later ,frozen and paralyzed.I am horribly depressed and scared for my future. Im 57 now and would like to live again. I dont know how anymore. Thank you for telling your story. It is almost exactly what happenned to me . I dont talk about it because it sounds so outrageous and I think nobody would believe me. I am still stuck in this nightmare and dont know how to be myself anymore . Feels good to get this out. I am grateful for this opportunity. I have to get a job to live now and I can barely get out of bed in the morning. Will this ever end??

Your story and the way you feel …I can honestly say that I understand ever word you said and feel…my story is very much like yours and all the time have no one and im alone and it has consumed me and to bear the worst unbearable pain as a mother .. you will never get over or truely understand, my son says stop playing the victim already… horrible 12yrs of my life and I finally got the courage to go with my children and bags of clothes and left everything behind…he found me almost killed me in front of our kids my mom my new neighbors and got off easy married his mistress and then without notice what was really happening, all a sudden i was unfit,unstable unsafe and made fasle reports on me and didn’t give back my son when suppose to unilaterally withheld from me denied access contact all asudden unexpectedly and I can’t imagine how my son was feeling or doing I called begging for help with police , child welfare our government, and lawyers had 3 and still no one was getting the reality of the situation I was in or why my behavior was in distress mode over 117days and with all my parental rights in place were stripped away from me and my son’s right to his loving mother he knows the torcher and emotional pain and hopelessness powerless to have my child parental abducted and alienated from me and teach him to hate be anger feel unsafe to fear his mother… and then his father says to me see what you get for not listening being a good girl , you deserve this he doesn’t need you and said that to our son oh I did u a favor son ,she doesn’t even care enough to be bothered don’t worry u have me , then they went to court made orders in my absence and bam now they’ve got a protective order against me and in a small town people look at me like I did do something wrong and now I can’t go to his school when I was a advide volunteer and was a active participant in my son’s life my snuggle bug now I don’t even know him and tells me I’ve never been a mom to hi.m and makes jokes about me with his dad and step mom, who served thier own selfish reasons and intentions of kicking out of my son’s life and it kills me to know how bad he must be feeling and I can’t help ,or comfort him I’m at at loss on what to do anymore ? I’m stuck , in a replay of it all it’s never ending grief, and no one truely understand the cruel inhuman mailious harmful things and the feeling of defeat slowly losing my hope now to….I don’t know what day or time it is most days I live in a fog of hell trying to grasp the concept of it all and I can’t still wrap my mind around how awful a person can be and do such things and to the ones you suppose to love …your kids …to hurt and cause them adverse effects later in life is unfathomable to come to terms with…I’m still in my jammies and haven’t gotten out of bed today… what’s the point I’m a loser worthless good for nothing f@#k up failure right …the shame and guilt is so heavy to carry…so Suzanne thank you for sharing, I know at least one other mother feels some what the same and can relate to.. ..your not alone , I’m here to next to you….thank you for your time and allowing me to say this because actually it’s the first time I’ve said anything about it in a long time and some timex the pain becomes to much to bear and have to release at least some of it. .. I’m also a parent of a 22 yr opioid substance user, and that stems from living in a domestic violence/ family violence abuse home and learning to survive another day and the satsitcal studies are true the adverse childhood effects are true and accurate and he caused it all and yet is the victim and abandoned her after we left , he was mean and violent to all of us he called he ugly duckling and u stink no boys will like u…so on far worse …you are made to be no one and you are nothing and still I live in fear ….thank you

I often want to write a book because Im so desperate to get my story out there. It is unbelievabe and absolutely harrowing..All I want and need is to be heard , aknowledged ,and understood. There is a reason why I am so empty and feel worthless, and so fearful. It really helps to receive feedback. Really means so much!

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Thank you so much…for the first time I feel understood. You explained exactly what this hell has been like. I am so grateful to know now that I am not alone and thay someone actually gets the devastation and agony that these souless people are capable of inflicting . I will never be the same and I live now in a frozen , fearful state. Therapists do not get it at all! So, thank you again. I feel better just knowing there are others out there like me.