Comments on: Broken and Lost by Matt Gerome

By: Danny Delirious

Danny Delirious — Fri, 25 Nov 2022 07:25:58 +0000

Karma is a bitch, pal. What goes around comes around. And you know what I’m talking about.

By: One of many of the abuse of TOXIC MONSTERS.

One of many of the abuse of TOXIC MONSTERS. — Wed, 22 Apr 2020 04:47:40 +0000

In reply to Lex Lothar.

You sound like a good person. For telling the woman married to this horrific man and his family that you would help her, if and when she was ready to untangle herself from them, I think this situation she is in is frankly terrifying. I’ve been in many toxic relationships, still scarred for life, I’m glad I never married anyone. It’s much harder to get away. The first one was my own Mother. And so the cycle continues with yourself putting yourself in danger too. It’s like you have a secret signal that attracts this reprehensible behaviour from both Males and Females. I’ve lost count of the amounts of toxic events i’ve been through.

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By: lynn

lynn — Thu, 05 Sep 2019 15:14:55 +0000

Thank you Matt for all that you’ve shared. What you’ve said resonates with my experiences. I’ve been married to what you call, “this force,” for a very long time. I have become a different woman. I used to be so cheerful and upbeat. This encounter has rocked me to the core. I too became someone I felt and sometimes still feel asheamed of. I was always on the defense lashing out, yelling, bitter and all. I guess I was in survival mode and did not know how to protect myself against this man and his cult family. The things they said about me was whittling my esteem away. I moved from another state after meeting this man one year prior to marrying him. I left my office job, famuly, basically everything to be with him. I moved to his small remote town. I thought he was a good God-fearing man only to find out he was a belligerent head-job. I am still living through this nightmarish marriage. It has taken a toll on me and my psyche. I am uncertain of so much and the pain that’s a whole story withing itself. This has been one of the most painful experiences i’ve been through in my life. I feel as if I am in a prison camp that uses psychological tricks to destroy my identity. Like a slow death. bit by bit, piece by piece my dignity and life were being chipped away from me. I’ve encountered others who do not believe me and blame me for what i’ve experienced, saying that I must’ve done something. People want to believe the lie. If a person hasn’t lived through this kind of abuse he or she has no clue what you or I are talking about. Somehow, I don’t think anyone can imagine the evil that exists in others until…. they’ve found themselves entrapped in this vortex of darkness, malevolent and malignant wickedness. I have found hope in Jesus Christ and I am aware that my journey to healing is just that, a journey. I would advise you, to be patient with yourself, forgive yourself and look to God for grace. I know how I blamed myself and I do take responsibility to for my ignorance, stupidity and co-dependency. These are all weakenessses. I accept myself, weaknesses and all (at least I’m working toward this anyway). I pray to God to forgive my sins and help me to forgive my husband but I realize forgiveness do not mean I want to stay. I want to leave and have to pray for the strength to do this too. Be thankful that this person left your life, if not, you would be on an emotional rollercoaster until this very day. Your life, emotions, finances, esteem and all would seem to be going in a downward spirtal. You would still be sucked into the black hole of evil malignancy. Stay on your journey of healling. Best wishes to you and all the best.

~Lynn~

By: Matt

Matt — Wed, 12 Jun 2019 06:28:10 +0000

In reply to tracy_lynn. Thank you for reading and responding. What a terrible thing we share.Such unnecessary,senseless pain. I do have a few trusted people to talk to.I have two sisters and a brother left. I 1couldn't have made it this far without them and a couple trusted friends. I am thankful that they cannot share what we do.Unbelievably, my oldest and closet friend committed suicide 2mths ago.I didn't see that one coming either.I appreciate your prayers and support.

By: Elaine Jennings

Elaine Jennings — Tue, 11 Jun 2019 13:26:16 +0000

My narcissist is my son. He’s been like it since he was 10 years old. I am (I think) his only victim. He has recently become a father and I a Grandmother for the first time. To condense everything he’s done it’s now got to the point where I cannot see my Grandson because I posted too many pictures of him on fb. What is a proud Grandmother supposed . Act like I don’t care. Had I not posted the pictures I would have been accused of not caring. I can’t win either way. He has blocked me from all communication with the baby and the Mother. My heart is breaking. I’ve sent him 3 apologise but to no avail. Any help out there would be gratefully appreciated.

By: Lex Lothar

Lex Lothar — Tue, 11 Jun 2019 07:16:54 +0000

Feel free to contact me at [email address edited out and sent to author privately] and perhaps I can be of help that goes beyond what you’ve been offered hitherto ?..

I don’t want to you trust me, anyone else, and especially yourself at this point,…and I will elaborate on this further once I hear from you – therefore telling you that I have no ulterior motive is meaningless at this juncture of things for you; but thought I’d get that out of the way, just the same . …

By: Corinne McRorie

Corinne McRorie — Tue, 11 Jun 2019 03:39:25 +0000

Hello Matt, may I suggest that you see a professional therapist immediately, one that specifically works with victims of malignant narcissistic personality disorder abuse. This personality disorder is insidious and extremely precarious as well as dangerous. These afflicted individuals are deplorable and sadistically enjoy the pain and suffering they inflict. I am a survivor of this abuse, I have been victimized for thirty five years, and I am now free and starting to my journey toward healing. It is not easy but it is worth it. You can manage with the right support and infrastructure for your self care. Please educate yourself as well, it is empowering and will help you understand the disorder (s). It is not you that is damaged and disordered your perpetrator is and unfortunately always will be, there is no cure or treatment. You were used and abused with intention by your perpetrator. They are extremely aware of what they are doing, and they are extremely disordered. Authors: Jackson McKenzie, Shahida Arabi, Sam Vaknin and HG Tudor have been extremely educational for me. You are biochemically addicted to your perpetrator, be patient and seek help to heal, you can do it and you are worth it…

By: Kristen Robbins

Kristen Robbins — Tue, 11 Jun 2019 03:25:14 +0000

I am so very sorry! The same thing has happened to me and I am moving! It is heart breaking. Praying for you!!

By: J

Tue, 11 Jun 2019 00:53:31 +0000

My nightmare started 9.5 yrs ago. I have been no contact for 15 months. She was recently separated with a 2.5 yr old boy who I raised as mine for 8 yrs. That boy became my 1st concern. When that happened she came to our house with cops. Took some of her and [name edited]’s things and I never saw them again. Periodically she hovered but I had discovered the covert narc which meant no contact. My heart breaks for my boy she stole away from me every day. I love that little boy so.

By: Debra A Finley

Debra A Finley — Tue, 11 Jun 2019 00:29:17 +0000

Matt iam so sorry that you have had to go thru this.I feel your pain. Iam sure you are a good man.Most of the time, us whom have good hearts and our genuine, are the victims and they turn us into the manipulators.Stay strong and keep your head up.God sees everything.Pray for God’s strength and His wisdom.