How is it possible that i ask myself the question: did i deserve the verbal abuse?
He did not use very extreme verbal abuse but the words hurt me. It feels like they are in a way covert and manipulative. Words like; you are crazy, you need help, you have 2 different personalities, i can not trust you emotionaly etc etc. He also uses everything i told him against me. When i tell him it hurts he tells me its my own fault that he is so angry, i leave him no choice and thats why he treats me that way. Its confusing and in the end i take the blame. It seems not so bad but something in the back of my head tells me it is abusive. I wish i did not feel so guilty so i could really break free. No contact is the only way…

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